Cafe Venus

Ever notice that the more solid and unflappable your faith is, the warmer it feels in your chest?

So it’s finally coming up.  I’m about to leave for Korea in a little under two weeks.  I have to head out to the post office now to send out my visa, going express mail.  I hope it gets back here soon.

I’m beginning to think that there isn’t anything I can say anymore that’s G-rated.  Maybe my blogging days are over — because I need to feel safer to say what I need to say.

Mood : stressed
Music : \"Electric Blue\" by the Cranberries

After attending a graduation workshop, I’m registering for classes — and picking a new desktop wallpaper and screensaver from my account at Bluemountain.com.

I also think it’s about time I start looking for a job . . .

Mood : frustrated
Music : \"Don\'t Stop the Music\" by Rihanna

I’m really very angry right now.  Doing my homework isn’t so much a chore as a mission or a burden.  I’m afraid of failure and of criticism and I don’t think I should have to take it anymore.

 ”Who knew that you’d be up in here lookin like you do
You’re makin’ stayin’ over here impossible; baby, I must say your aura is incredible
If you dont have to go — don’t.
I wanna take you away — lets escape into the music
DJ let it play; I just can’t refuse it
Like the way you do this; Keep on rockin to it
Please don’t stop the
Please don’t stop the music”
- Rihanna

Mood : cold

I’ve decided that there’s a room that exists on campus which is almost as cool as the room that I want to have:  the SBS West student lounge.  Meanwhile, I have asked myself for the millionth time, “Am I ever going to have a life?”

My confidence may be hanging from the ceiling in shreds right now but I’m gathering it up and it easily fills both of my hands.